To all my friends and family...

So I couldn't sleep tonight and it wasn't the restless type can't sleep that I usually have. I was literally lying in bed wide awake thinking I should be asleep. So I decided to study a little bit and got out of bed. As usual though my studies led me to Facebook (funny how that seems to be where I end up every time I study) and to just playing a little bit of catch up (aka Facebook stalking).  

As I went I came across a friends note. As I was reading this note I realized that I didn't know anything about what he was talking about (at least not in the recent sense). The more I thought about it, the more I realized that I hadn't been checking out notes recently and that I hadn't been checking on friends. Even further I realized that I wasn't paying attention to what I consider the important things in life....my friends and family. 


Recently there has been a lot going on in my life. Suffice it to say that I have several options on my plate and I don't know which one I am going to choose in any way. I have been very focused on all of that and making sure that it is going well and trying to get things going the way that I think they should go. So much so that I have neglected people. Things that I should have known were slipping right past me and people that I haven't talked to in a while were standing right in front of me and I wasn't saying a word. 


I guess what I am trying to say (in my long winded way that I say things) is that I am sorry. I am sorry that I was so focused on myself that I forgot to look out for my friends. I am sorry that I was so focused on myself that I couldn't see where other people needed me. I am sorry that if you tried to talk to me I ignored you. I am sorry! 


I don't know where life is going for me right now. I trust God and take it one day at a time but from now on instead of trusting God while keeping one hand on the controls. I am going to use that hand to do what I should have been doing all along...helping those who God has put close to me.